Ten Happy Things.

Saturday, 28 March 2015

So, the moment finally came that I handed this bad boy in. I keep seeing emotional facebook posts/instagrams/tweets about the long eight months with their dissertations etc. etc, but truthfully, I'm not even emotional about it, I'm just really blummin' happy that it has GONE! It began to suck the life out of me and the enjoyment disappeared. I don't ever want to see a person yawn again. Or maybe just for a while.

Handing it in made me happy. Happy, relieved, and grateful for the upcoming lack of reading no papers for a while and the lack of having to care about word counts and numbers. So much, that we got home, drank some cocktails, and sat and pretty much did nothing. It was great.

Other things that are making me happy lately?

  1. My friends. Just lately I have been appreciating my friends more than ever. My heart just fills up when I think about them, and I can't help but realise how lucky I am. I have the best friends ever, I just want to hug every single one of them.

  2. Tulips. For the first time ever, I bought myself flowers, and I don't understand why I've never done it before! They look so pretty and I feel like a proud flower mumma.

  3. Rollercoaster Tycoon 4 on iPad. Once I start playing a game, I become obsessed. This is my new obsession. (Friend code: PBP8LE)

  4. Chocolate. I just love chocolate.

  5. Bunny cuddles. I can pick Raph up and give him a squeeze whenever I like, and he doesn't even hate me for it. I love him.

  6. The sun! IT HAS ARRIVED!

  7. Cleaning. Okay, this is weird, right?? But when you have something important to do, it almost feels as if cleaning/tidying becomes a procrastination technique. So, now everything's done, I can finally spend time tidying and cleaning, and it's so strangely satisfying.


  9. Getting some spare time to spend on my project life and my blog. Two things that I've been waiting for!

  10. Easter break. A.k.a. my birthday.
All of these things are super simple, but I just feel so content when I think about them. 
What is your current happy thing?

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Shattered sight

Wednesday, 18 March 2015

Imagine if we all just saw the bad in each other. Imagine if every single part of you that is mean, selfish and rude, got told to you by a confrontational friend or family member. Imagine every bad thought running through your head during the day being directed at you.

I watched an episode of OUAT the other day where a spell was cast so that they all only saw the bad in each other. They all only saw what they disliked about the person and what they disliked about themselves. There were dwarves fighting on the street and Prince Charming and Snow White didn’t half have an abusive argument. And Snow White even had a fist fight with the Evil Queen – all pretty funny when you think about it in that fairytale way.

It got me thinking though. If that spell was cast over us all right now, what would the people surrounding me in my life say to me? How much of what I do and say in a day is enough to affect somebody enough that it is deep down held against me?

For the past few years, I really have tried my hardest to become a nicer person. I wasn’t the greatest kid in school, I wasn’t the friendliest being in college, but coming to university, I made a pact to myself to be kinder.

I admit I have a terrible habit of snapping at people when I get in bad moods, intolerance of people that don’t understand when to give up, and the well-known ‘insult your best friends’ habit. I am blunt towards people that say dumb things and cannot stand people who think they are right all of the time. I push away potential love interests, and I have little patience for people that ask loads of questions. I can be blunt at times and I can say things that instantly make me want to bop my head against the nearest wall.

If the spell was cast, I’m pretty certain all of these things would come up, and they wouldn’t surprise me at all. If anything else came up? It would hurt, because I really do try.

I make a conscious effort to be friendly to everybody that I come across, without batting an eyelid at what their appearance may be. I always say please and thank you and I use manners no matter what. Despite my impatience, I always force a smile and be as helpful as I can be, and when people believe they’re right (When it’s painfully obvious that they’re wrong), I make sure that I say ‘ok’ and end the conversation before I speak derogatory terms. I really do try. And I hope I try hard enough that people don’t actually notice that I’m internally battling against any bad egg inside of me. Hopefully one day I won’t have to try anymore.

I think there are a lot of people in the world that don’t realise that what they do and say affects the people around them. There are people that openly judge others based on their appearance. There are people that say rude comments to your face and try and laugh it off as if it’s a joke, when actually, it really hurt your feelings. Unfortunately, there are even some people that are well aware that it hurt your feelings and don’t give a flying duck.

Where I’m going with this is that I think we should all imagine that the spell has been casted. What would be said to you? Would you be expecting it? Or is it the bad parts of yourself that you wish you could hide? Or maybe don’t even try to hide?

I think that we should be much more aware of what we say and do to people. It really does come down to treating others as if you’d wish to be treated. It’s important that we work on ourselves to make ourselves the best that we can be, and if that means have internal battles to keep bad things in, then you do that! It shows that your voice is the strongest part of you. You can think bad things in your head if you have to, my god, the amount of cursing I have done at people whilst giving them a huge grin at work is unreal. But my thoughts will never affect somebody’s day. They’ll never enter that person’s head and make them second guess themselves, feel sad or have something to hold against me in life. I really do think that that is important.

So, if the spell was cast right now? Well, I’d hope that I’d be prepared for what people would say to me. And the important thing is, is that I know these things and I know that I am on the road to changing them.

How about you?

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12 things that I’ve learnt whilst doing my dissertation

Monday, 16 March 2015

We all know that I’m currently doing my dissertation. God forbid if I let any of you forget about it. Sharing the pain is somewhat easing my poor brain, as a fair few of you are also in this struggle and we can all moan together! But since things have started getting serious, I’ve learnt a few things.
  1. The library is a god damn awful place to work. People talking EVERYWHERE. People distracting you EVERYWHERE.

  2. But you are in some form of relationship with it, and you just cannot leave. If I stay in the library, even if I sit on my phone, I’m clearly being productive because I am here.

  3. Games are 10x more addictive than normal. I’ll just play this game for 13 more minutes, so then its 3’o clock, and then I’ll start my work again.

  4. Watching TV feels so bad it’s good. Teletubbies? OH MY GOD, this is my FAVOURITE programme. I’m going to binge watch this because I have no worries or anything else productive to do.

  5. Eating becomes procrastinating with a great excuse. Oh, it’s dinner time already? Great! Time to take a break and eat.

  6. You become obsessed with word counts. Normal conversation does not exist without ‘how many words did you get done today?’, ‘Oooh, how many words have you got left to do?’. It’s exhausting.

  7. You hate everybody that has finished. It doesn’t matter that they began before you or spent more time working on it. You hate them. Why did they betray your trust like that?

  8. You’ll use the knowledge that people have done less than you as an internal superpower. You won’t even feel bad about it. ‘Oh shit, noo, you haven’t even started that bit?’ HA, YES, ONE-UP!

  9. You turn down plans because you have a dissertation to do. And then spend the whole day procrastinating anyway.

  10. Your other lectures and assignments have absolutely no relevance in your life any more. Keep up with my other assignments and lectures too?! Are you JOKING?!

  11. Any music in your ears whilst typing is the bomb. You never realised how much you can dance to a song until you have to concentrate on something more important.

  12. You class somebody that is breathing, blinking, sneezing or typing as distracting. And if they’re distracting you, you clearly cannot work.

Who’s feeling me here?

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Gifts for the Impossible Mother

Monday, 9 March 2015

When it comes to Mother's Day suggestions, people are forever suggesting flowers, jewellery, beauty, and fragrances. My Mum? She doesn't enjoy any of that kind of stuff. She hardly wears jewellery, rarely wears make-up, sticks to the same perfumes, and flowers? Let's just say that I'm glad she has more skills looking after little humans!

So, I'm pushing all of these gift guides aside and making room for my own - for the impossible mother. If you don't have a mother that sits and goes 'ohh, I don't knowww' every time you ask for gift ideas, then you're a lucky, lucky person! It's a blummin' nightmare.

Barburrito Masterclass

Thursday, 5 March 2015

I only had my first ever burrito last year. I wasn't really sure what to get, so I just copied my friend and it was just a bit... bland. Because of that, I never really understood the fascination. Fast forward a few months and I headed to Barburrito with N, with little expectations, and a drive of hunger rather than interest. I loved it. There were so many flavours! Ever since then, I find myself heading to a Barburrito whenever I have the chance, choosing it in the likes of Trafford Centre's Orient.


Tuesday, 3 March 2015

If you told me eight months ago when I published my first ever post on elelibee, that I would find a group of amazing friends through blogging that I would speak to every single day, I would have probably have snorted and gone 'aw, that would be dead cute wouldn't it'. Eight months later and I am lucky enough to have been blessed with just that.